"KONO SEKAI WA, YUME NO NAI"

Another moth came fluttering by.

And with it another month is slowly crawling to an end.

In the flashing light a year has dropped dead.

I was warped and altered many times.

Within the vortex of living and dying I am endlessly struggling.

Not being trusted anymore, and every single word escaped my lips is regarded as sin.

Will I survive this time?

As I watch the sun rising and setting I can feel my heart weakening.

My strength is all but gone.

That is why, I doubted I can witness tomorrow's sunrise.

But, the most important part is I am still here for now.

I am not afraid of leaving this malice-tainted world.

I am not afraid, because as I am now I am already hunted down.

But I will choose to face death, not running away and hiding.

Such is the way he die.

LAVATIC FUNERAL

It's beautiful
The moment you lay me down and say goodbye
I am seeing you through a glazed pair of eyes

Needing you
Wanting to be with you
Do you realise such words are breaking me from the inside?

I am not the helpless body you cried for
I am not the limp hands that are unable to embrace you
I am always beside you

A vision to the future is now blurred
So wipe all your tears yourself and wake up from the endless sorrow
I am only sorry I can't do it myself

I am not the withering veins you are seeing
I am not the decaying entity laid down before you
I am always beside you

So seal me inside our Mother
I will find you if I am able to wake up
Someday I will show you once again
The brilliant glorious dream

INCENCE

The mischievous flickering flame
A symbol for hope
but not here

Another burning inflicted
I am slowly dying
Just for a temporary peace

In the end he whispers "You Have Soul"
And discards my remains

A burst of dark flame
Engulfing my already pitiful self
I can't cry, I can't move
Only waiting until my final combustion

If he stops my burning
He will whisper "Rest For Now"
But not today

A dark flame, enslaving my empty mind
Will he unlit my agony with a manic laugh?
My will is not going to yield
As opposed to this crumbling body of mine

He watches me dying
And through a lamentful smile he whispers
"You Have Soul"

NAGAI NO CURSE

I am in confusion.

She is just beyond these walls.

Why can't she see me?

Simple, because I don't want to be seen.

And why don't I want to be seen?

That I don't know.

I am hurt seeing her talking to another person.

Another person with a warm, beating heart.

Whilst mine has long been cold and frozen.

She is dangerously attracting.

If I hadn't refrained myself that night I would be sleeping deep in that catacomb.

She is going outside.

Like a predator I follow her stealthily.

She is heading towards the moon.

Weird, there is nothing there but a barren hill with a dying tree.

She stands before the tree and turns around.

"It's okay. You can come out now."

I freeze.

"Yes my dearest Sir, I can sense you nearby."

I come out from the shadows that have cloaked me.

I feel vulnerable, with the pale moonlight shines on me.

"My Sir, dearest Sir, have you not forgotten?"

"Of all the fairest maidens you have you have picked me?"

I don't want this conversation.

"Answer me Sir, why have I attracted you?"

I don't want this conversation.

So I turn my back on her and walk away.

I can hear her footsteps, moving to stop me.

So I leap as far as I can and leave her far behind.

I am so sorry, my dear Lilia.

I don't want you to know that I have feelings for you.

So I will keep on loving you from the shadows.

TAOZI

There is one canary I totally adore so much.

It is one of my closest friend. It listens to me when I speak, and replies with the same passion I use to talk with it.

It is just that I am starting to fear that canary.

What if I get attached to it so much?

What if it someday decided to leave me?

My sweet canary, one I nurture and feed more than I feed myself.

It would hurt me so much if you leave me someday.

I only want you to be mine always.

Do not wander around and make new acquaintances.

Sing only for me. Refrain from letting others know how sweet your voice truly is.

But keeping you caged for all your life is also painful for me.

You won't be able to spread those seraphic wings proudly in that confined space.

So I will let you go, someday.

And I won't go look for you anymore.