CELLS WRITHE IN AGONY

Violation of faith
The burning of pacts
Will you survive in this place?

Now, let's go
To a world where nightmares are reality
And cry

Now come to me

You cannot escape me
Please do not underestimate me
Keep it to yourself
but you already die countless times due to your heavy crimes

Tied down, burning
Until you become a pile of ashes
For exposing yourself
Now, burn

Discrimination
Do not regret, HONEY
You made your choices already

Tied down, burning
Until you become a pile of ashes
For altering your genetic makeups
Now burn

Do not escape me
You cannot underestimate me
You took the wrong path
Do not blame it on me
I just guide you to where you want to be

Tied down, burning
Rise from the pile of ashes
For defying your own nature
Please, go ahead
Burn

Hold

I have been playing much games lately, but I am more into RPGs.

When I played through Final Fantasy Dawn Of Souls, I realised something...

'FINAL FANTASY' is a weird title.

I have done some digging and reading, and found out that Squaresoft (now Square Enix) was on the verge of bankruptcy when they created the first Final Fantasy.

They used the last of the company's money to produce the last game, hence the name.

The game was a huge success. In a twist of fate the one that was supposed to signify their farewell, was actually the one that make their name well-known.

Now I am playing Final Fantasy VII: Dirge of Cerberus.

Clarification

Just so you all know, I never write lyrics randomly.

All my pieces have deep meanings. Read them carefully.

Just because I use 'blood' doesn't mean that I am, say, morbid.

And yeah, I am aware of the whisperings, and they DO tick me off so please stop (>_>)

I have emotions too, you know, including envy.

Embryo

In the dazzling light
I was given a glorious blade

My first instinct kicked in
I want to see the world

I severed the flesh that confined me wholy
From a fountain of blood I emerged
I screamed as I bathed in life
That time I began to exist among the others

In the light of the beginning
I was gifted with a crystal that rests within my chest

Started in a warm light
This tiny life will end in a blast of brilliant white

Hello My Liar

Endless melody flows
By the eternal hand
The winged maiden draws hope with her violin

A thousand words
Pictured within a pure white sky
The maiden appeared
With roses, white, beautiful
Embodiment of desires

Come, I'll stain it crimson red
The lovely roses draw blood
From the tips of unwary fingers

In the concealed hearts rest a desire
To obtain a moment
Of a slight laughter
From the maiden

Come, I'll taint it with sin
The innocent ascended soul
The velvet cover of your neck
An unquenched thirst burns

A melody is played
By the maiden's hands
With a dark melodious voice
Sings a melancholic requiem
Draws closer in sorrow

One moment I try to refrain
But you appeal through the pain-filled eyes
Whispers "please, do not go"

Come, I'll draw it in reddish hue
The scent of the beautiful blood
Tarnishing the pure white velvet
Ah, forgive my indignified approach

Come, I'll saturate it with your life
Drain all your ugliness, imperfection
So play the melodious sorrow

FEATHER

It is slipping, and I miss you
I wish I can see you when I close these eyes

You really are gone, aren't you?
Because I cannot ignore the emptiness at the seat you always rested upon

Although you are not here anymore
I can still feel your lingering touch

A heavy rain poured outside this lonely chamber
And I watched as the flowers that represent you bloom

I hold close to my heart the dress you wore under the night sky
And I watch my reflection in your mirror shedding his tears
But I can see your faint fingers trace my cheeks
I try to touch you but I feel nothing
And the gentle calmness shatters in a melancholic whimper

May you be there

In the nights I could not sleep

The heavy rain still pours down
But I can hear your melody among the fine droplets
So I head outside and spread my arms wide
For the rain can soothe the wound scarring my inner self
And the rain, although cold, still holds mercy
It lifts me from this painful trap and set me free

I am sure I will meet you again, in the far future

The memories of you are flashing before my eyes
And I thank you, for being there for me
For the last time, let me lull you to sleep
Do not worry about me, I will be fine alone

I know you are watching me somewhere
Please, I want to make you believe that I can achieve both our dreams
Then I will be able to face you
And close these eyes for eternity...

VENOMOUS

She is just fourteen years old. Yet her eyes seem more mature, somehow.

Short stature, a ribbon adorned her head. Her face is sometimes veiled by her side bangs.

She has a circle of friends. Friends that are determined to keep her from being hurt by another. Over-protectiveness. Fools.

She hasn't seen much of the world. Näive. Innocent. Timid. Silent. All these are contained within that frail-looking figure.

She never laughs. Smiles, yes, but only occasionally. Those peachy lips are frozen in a bitter way. A pity.

Her voice... Her talking is rare. And that is why she was called 'mute'. How inconsiderate.

She loves to tug at people's sleeves, literally. A way to make them know of her presence there, and also as a substitute of her voice.

She is close, yet so far. Although she is right next to you, there will be this overwhelming feeling that she is not your normal girl. You can't speak to her, because she is so frail-looking that you are afraid even your voice will hurt her.

And that is why.

SPHERE OF DESIRE

A person leading death
comforting every souls with a gravel voice
sings a song to lure them to their tombs

He would not choose nor he would not care
Everyone is just a victim in his eyes
Clad in ceremonial attires, carrying a sacred lance
He pierces the chest of one he finds worthy to feed blood from

Agony is his pleasure, fear is his armor
To deceive his peers he dons a mask
Hiding beneath a faux personality
He tries to laugh while his victims cry

Within his heart he is the one who cries
Why has he gone to the wrong way?
He has been comforting the scorched feelings with an icy-cold dismissal
Thus he fails to see where he has suffer

Once he finds out the truth he claws his own chest
And his tears are pooling beside the drained bodies
He wants to discard the mask that has served him well
But it is stuck on his face forever

Armed by grief instead of desire
He seeks for any foolish soul dare to step into his land
Where the winds howl everyday
And the Sun weeps forever

Thronos Angelus: Revival from Light to Ashes

At this moment,
I am trying to nurse
the gaping wound you gave as the final gift
A wound unlike any others, this one still bleeds
But it does not hurt as much as this loneliness

I wished I was born like you
without beauty, possessing the seven ugliest sins

The long distance between us is divinely absurd
If I wanted to I can spread these wings and stay by your side

The night you severed my heart,
suffocated me yet you breathed life into my body

The celestial being has tasted the stench of the earth
thus it is exiled from the heaven

I gaze upon the distance between us
and the gold sunbeams fall upon my face and radiate warmness into my hollow self

Now I am leaving
seeking a way to shed these wings away
So I can be by your side once again
I am certain it will take a long time
But...
...I hope my prayers will reach you someday...

HI.TSU.GI [nailed shut]

It surely has been a while.

I have neglected this place for more than one month and now I have returned.

Lately I have been into the language of France.

I tried rather unsuccessfully to learn.

But without a partner all the efforts seen to be wasted.

Since then I am searching for someone who posses qualities far surpass mine in order to learn much.

Such person will be able to rip the darkness away from this little heart and banish it away forever.

And together in pursuit of happiness, reaching the distant light although many differences set us apart.

In the heart it is all that it takes. Close the eyes and summon the images of the other self and hold true to the light.

I am now alone, trying to ingest the impurities of the world that has come to me as of now.

Why am I unable to escape the past?

One I would give everything to discard them away?

So they will never bother me again?

I want to gather enough courage to say the words.

Yet I cannot.

So now I am pretending that I have forgotten all but the present and the future.

Forgive me, the person who I have handed my trust before.

I do not wish to mingle with you nor the minions you still keep under your wings anymore.

This is goodbye so please...

Just stay as a memory...

DEATH WITH ASHES

Dear false beauty
I can hear you dying
In depths of self-made illusions
Try extending a hand but no one is there

A defective scripted death
Long-drawn suffering of breathless sigh

You remind me of the withered garden
Whose poisonous lies seep within the soil and drop dead by itself

But why kill yourself?
Beyond the ashes still the moon shines
But the icy dagger already stabbed your little heart
Cry a single drop of blood
And pray for a never-ending rain

The way you commit it
Still cannot remember me right?
It's fine
In the last moment, a flame flickered before your eyes
And like the lone candle lit in the darkest confine
Your life slowly seeps away as the hand drenched in scarlet sin
desperately try to repent all errors

Final steps are being climbed
Take your dive into your own desire

CHI NO 'GENESIS' [RE-BIRTH PART 3]

Still nothing.

As expected, I am rather reckless. My fickle heart just managed to make me lapse into a period of dormancy.

Henceforth, I must stay in the motion in order to keep on writing pieces after pieces.

But in this state of mind, unable to focus on one thing, and deep in anguish...

Like an ominous wind the feelings come and go just like that.

I want to climb out of the deep valley which is the lovely poisonous garden.

CHI NO 'GENESIS' [RE-BIRTH PART TWO]

Artificial or natural?

A question that stays in my mind for a while now.

What will the 'in vitro babies' feel when they were to be told, that their arrival to the impure world is after all, being controlled not by the hands of God?

What will the 'natural babies' feel when they realise their friends are in fact, not the same as them?

But regardless of the outcome, it still won't change the fact that one has being birthed to live in this polluted utopia.

CHI NO 'GENESIS'

I started the day with a blank mind.

It was like everything that lingered in my head before I drifted to sleep was extracted.

And in its place was these random words.

Inspiration poured on me like this comfort-giving rain outside my house.

And on my way home I got a chance to walk under the rain.

Just now a thunder boomed to which my glass window quiver in terror.

Now back to the 'walking under the rain topic', I was hesistant at first.

Funny, it was as if I was afraid of the minute droplets.

Then a single droplet striked my left eye and I was finally able to overcome the heavy feeling that stayed in my chest for so long.

With every raindrop that dyed my white shirt gray I felt like they took my burden away and cure me of the self-induced feeling of loneliness.

With a slow classical music flowing from my badly-tuned speakers I picked a pen and started to write.

I wrote, and wrote, and wrote, and wrote...

...until my index finger hurt.

Lying before me was a piece of paper, with words of apology and sensation of being re-birth scribbled in a random manner.

Now it is time to convert them into a piece that truly fits my true self.

Another thunder roared across the sky.

I closed my eyes and a speck of tear overflowed from the corner of the left one.

Maybe I have hurt myself badly for constantly tormenting the impure heart with visions of arrogance flashing before a weak individual who uses melody as remedy.

I shattered the crown and donned the worn-out attires, waiting for the dawn of new souls.

CHARM

Gee when I looked at the time this afternoon the clock showed 15:15:06...

It's bad luck! (0_0)

It's a relief today's not Friday.

No songs written this week. Huuu writer's block... ( >A< )

Instead of saying "oni wa soto! fuku wa uchi!" during festivals I should shout "WRITER'S BLOCK wa soto! INSPI wa uchi!"

I love reading Japanese folklores...

B★SIDE

You are like a single dandelion, laying dormant
Afraid of others, doesn't want to bloom

Inferior thoughts have been affixted
Though small you can outshine the roses

It's just a matter of time
Sleep now my dearest
I want to see you lose yourself
Beautifully falling pieces by pieces, emerging from the green shroud

This heart goes wild whenever these eyes encounter yours
The soul relinquished control of the body, shivers involuntarily

Warmness in the chest, pounding fast
Swaying to incoherent melody, don't be afraid
There are no more limit, broken through by the brave you

I will always watch you, no matter how insane you act

My single dandelion

pretty_pathetic

Such a beautiful facade
The pleasent silk is only skin-deep
Masking the fickle ugliness beneath
Lies seep through the cracks on the face

Alcohol as blood
Undignified princess swoons under the dim light
Crimson wine inside the scarlet goblet
Alternating personalities
between manic eyes and indifferent expression
Stranger in the normal world

Sinless comedy committed
The aesthetic persuasive darkness
Laughingly tortures the holy dress
Tampered mind
Silently crying
There won't be tomorrow for the DESPAIRED

The prayers fail to reach the mortal hearts and shatter upon being overshadowed by fear

I laugh, lovely princess
Smile wickedly and lay waste no more onto the frail dignity

Bits to ASHES

I hold and exposed you to the star
Crumble away and leave only dust
Masquerade under the moon of the scarlet prayer
Dazzle me with your dying face
Deathly pale lips
My dearest lost little doll
I will have you by the next moment I step on the scattering you

TRiCK

α:Vout is a young band consisting of a vocalist/guitarist Sou, guitarist MIROKU, bassist Yu-Ma and drummer Sin.

Actually they have a proper vocalist named Joy but he left the band this July, forcing Sou to take over.

I have listened to their 'TRiCK THEATER'. I like the songs but Sou's vocals... It's not that bad though. I'd say he will do better if he receive proper training.

I wanna see how far can they go. I absolutely love their kind of music.

Alto

I am refining all the lyrics I have written so far.

Total number of songs written these past two weeks: 1!

I lack INSPI~ (T^T)

Regarding my vocals and bass skills... I think I haven't progressed much.

I am such a slow learner... ( - . - )

Want to perform 'CONCEALMENT - SIVA' so badly...

GLAZE

I am tired.

Hehe..

Just a brief update.

See ya!

KRYSTA

I finally have Satsuki's newest maxi-single!

Truly can't get enough of my idol's impressive vocal skill.

DAZZLE's pretty much like In a Lucid Dream combined with Veil of MARIA.

RAIN DROP features some quite heavy drum beats (sufficient enough to imagine him headbanging to that). Reminiscence of his old RENTRER EN SOI days? Gosh, miss Shun and Mika very much...

Ah, CRYSTAL is like a continuation for AWAKE. Heart-wrenching pieces arranged into beautiful songs accompanied with lyrics that never fail to dissapoint.

HEART is more to a ballad I think. I can understand the lyrics quite well, and it's very touching.

FORBIDDEN BEAUTY

An otherworldly beauty. Its sacred aestheticism is very attracting.

Behold, my newest obsession:

Re:COUNT

I still haven't finished two song lyrics.

Writer's block? Gee I hope not. I don't want to end up like Rzeznik-san from Goo Goo Dolls.

Distracted? I think so. I saw one particular person yesterday and although we barely know each other...

I couldn't believe when I go and talk to that person.

It was a weird feeling. It was not love but...

More like the sensation we get after finding something that has been lost for a VEEEERY long time.

Kinda creepy...

And DARK WALTZ is still yet to come.

Endless FANTASY

Currently working on new songs.

Never thought I could finish writing lyrics for 5 different songs in just a few days. It is applausable I'd say.

Little by little I am getting closer to my very own evolution.

I'll be working with my friends about their melodies, and if possible even a recording would please me.

Mmm, I think I can see you soon. I can feel it. Wait for me just a little bit.

Future is nigh, but the night's still young.

These stars will bear witness to the DARK WALTZ.

But now scatter, I want to be immersed in the red bath.

Anata e

These worldly possessions lure no one.

Perhaps I was wrong. I had spent much time under the light that it begins to crack my shell.

Shouldn't have done that.

I should have lapse into the forbidden sleep and never let the Sun to enter my eye.

Perhaps I am better suited to be confined into the wooden bed of night and sealed away deep within the Mother.

Then I can break myself apart, and being absorbed into the very soil I loved.

My legacy will never fade. So don't ever forget me.

Nail my heart. I couldn't bear the pain of being apart from you.

I wear the scar-inflicting crown, and warm constituent of the living trickled down my face.

I ripped the mask that have concealed the true self away, only to wear it back after treachery is unveiled.

I am always being alone from the start.

A piece on the chessboard without the hand to move me around.

Wait, question yourself. Why did you ever go?

Why did you cry if you do hate me? Why don't you smile if you really want to hurt me? Why don't you?

But then, tears are the most potent, lethal weapon of your kind. So I am not surprised.

Lay me down. Close my eyelids and put the roses over my chest.

Watch me closely as they carry me away.

Do you see a single tear running down?

I-ZU

Get up on those feet
Dried tears, discord of melody
Done harm to the soul of the rose

Hollowed chest
Still refraining from emotions
Won't work anymore

I can sense loneliness
Amongst this crowd there is one poor heart in great distress

Emerald petals below the radiant rubies
Amethyst wings fluttering before them
That crusted heart has grown cold
While those eyes reflect a sense of inferiority

Wind carries the stench of an idle hatred
I can feel it

Where are you?

I encounter a lucid heart
Arduous complex words do not hide you
They tear you from inside
And you're helplessly watching as they devour everything

It's literally falling apart
There's nothing can be done to prevent it

Get up on those feet
It is the discord of melody
No need for harmonious prayer
And the heart shatters

YOMI

I'm sorry for neglecting this blog for a while~

There's something that keeps me busy lately..

But I have lots of inspiration, so it is totally okay.

Just read Shattered Tranquility about Yomi. Can't help but laugh at his unfortunate experience XD

KURAGAMI

It is almost 10pm now. XD

Just now I had a great conversation with a barber. He is really a nice person.

When I asked him about his job, he proudly declared that he love it.

He told me that to grasp happiness in this life we must learn to love all that we do.

Even if we started with a tiny seed, if we put an effort, we can fill a garden with wonderful flowers.

Although...

He didn't understand me quite well... =s

So he ended up cutting my hair shorter than intended. :D

But then he said, everything can return to its original state. We just need patience.

I truly agree with him.

PRIMORDIA

This is...
The depth of the beginning
Where you will reform...

It suffocates you, it drowns you
Again fear seized the heart
Hold onto the last shred of consciousness
Find oneself being shackled and sinks

Ah, you are dissolving...
Scatter your final thoughts
Which will be washed away by the current

You can hear it...
The harmonic requiem that prays
Crimson red amniotic coffin
It will be over

Ah, the scattering you... are insignificant
You will just float as foams
Cute little bubbles drifting to eternity

All lifes restarted but not you
Aesthetic grotesque arts
Tiny white fleeting figures
Hypnotic little waves...

Unstable minute being
Ah I long for you...

CRYSTAL

I just can't find it on the net. Damn (- . - ').

Apparently, the Prince complained before about how people downloaded his single 'AWAKE' rather than buying.

Well, that can't be helped I think. They only distributed it in Japan. (0.o)

Regarding his maxi-single, all the titles are written in whole capital letters.

Is it some kind of trend amongst Japanese artists? f(._. )

Anyways I will continue hunting CRYSTAL :D.

To the rose bath...

Gekkou

This is the person who spends most of his time in his roon, listening to music all day long. (^-^)v

It is beautiful today. I can see couples of butterflies in my garden. Maybe they are enjoying the sun :D

There are less clouds today but the blue sky is radiant. I can spend a lot of time gazing at it. XD



Music:
Secilia Luna - Crescent

Secret garden

Cannot see yet this heart wants to
The lamentful voice of those hands that were meant to be with mine
My conscience is breaking

In the far distance
There was a garden where I could call home
Where delusion is majesty
I sank into the helpless dignity

All of it, it is false and deceit
Once again, this heart bleeds profusely
Why is it that when you are eluding me
A sharp pain stab my chest?

I bathed in the forbidden pit
But the colossal wound is not healed

In the future, will we meet again?
On this spot, where we first saw each other?
Why, why do you leave me here?

The trees, deprived of life are blooming
Soon this garden will be filled with lilac petals
Dead withered affectionate flowers
Is revived when you whisper

Whole garden is shaking
It shrieks your name in a voice tainted with loneliness

I stand before the gates
Waiting to take your hands and enter it together once again

pseudo-HEART

Dreams we shared
Now shattered

Enslaven with jealousy
Flesh and blood hurting each other
Scabbing wounds ripped open
Under the unending fantasy

Abnormality formed
Within the crimson garden of lies
Imitating runes that was scribbled
On the half-opened gates
Berries half-mature crushed
With the noble frail hands

What can be seen is only thorns
Puncturing the fingers
That will cry the opposite of tears

Trapped within each other's guilt
Ending up becoming more deteriorated
This is no mere enmity
This is past beyong hatred
Longing for the vanishing

[incoherent whispers]

Try to see with the heart
Endless inferior feeling
Begone has the pride
What is left is the shattered cause
Breaking into tiny pieces
Unable to be salvaged anymore

Deemed lost in the lone contrast
Bonds forming and breaking

SENS[AGiTA]TION

Why? Why? Why?
Look at me, hold my lips, trace my mottled cheeks
Leaving me alone with your essence

Found and lost
Found and lost
You are persistant
Go grab your heart and die

Sole existance: to be a hindrance
Pluck my emotions
Blaze the azure
Cry over me

Wrap me up Wrap me up!
DON'T just leave me here!

A being made from pleasure
Created from the bitter white jam and jelly
The product of PROMISCUOUS
Discarded after the first breath
Haven't even blink an eye
Death fleets closer every second

You who reaps the soul
Teary eyes looking down
PICK ME UP PICK ME UP!
The heavy sin you will shoulder
With crystals of fear of isolation

Hunt you down Hunt you down
Lucid hatred, reflected
In the eyes, all that matters
With a sadistic smile

Drop me Drop me
Find yourself staring at the bridge
Hug me Hug me
And crawl closer to the edge

A lonely tongue
Vomiting silent obscenity
Regreting all, have you Mother Dear?
And he has pulled your wings off
With a single manic smile

Don't turn back Don't turn back
Making way to the depths
Ignore the burning lungs!
Embrace me with your deathly arms
Together forever without the spewer of lies

Lunacy ends here
And it will return

Under Pressure

Watching the tiny reflection on the mirror...

Brings a sense of inferiority.

If only there is a pair of wings...

Escape from all troubles.

Letting them go...

A heavy feeling on the heart.

Washing all doubts from the mind...

Serenity sweeps into the soul.

Why do we live?
When there is no hope tomorrow
To do what everyone expect us to do
Blindly moving forward
No direction nor dream and passion

Listen to the streams...

Melodious waves.

Splatters of rain on the window...

Soothes the aching soul.

Within the cycle of life
What can be found?
Purpose of keep on living
Will it be there?
Never-ending struggle to be on par with others
Only to be pushed back with cold words

Infectious blaming is no more
Bravely confront everything

It is comforting...

Bad '09

As quoted by someone:

"The serial disbanding has stop, but now... Now it's serial hospitalization/deaths."

This year's really got major bad news for the music scene.

Re:Forward

Just received news on Facebook that Versailles will continue.

They posted something, a messege to their whole fan community. And it is very, very touching.

But I won't cry anymore. Not until I achieve something big.

Then it will be tears of joy, not the tears of sorrow.

I will keep the elegent butterfly near the heart, wishing that he will forever be there.

And I, as well as other fans, will keep on supporting Kamijo, Hizaki, Teru and Yuki.

I am sure that's what Jasmine You would wish for.

I shall honor his wish.

Azure Flame

Thank you to those friends who treated me! The beef rice was really delicious ( ^ - ^ )b

Now I find myself relaxing and listening to songs.

I am trying to get more inspiration here. XD

With the heat gathered from the hopefull hearts I will present them a very good song in the future.

I will keep on going forward.



Music:
depression - hime ichigo

DIM

It's afternoon already ( > _ < )

But because of the cloudy weather the sky looks young. Feels like it is much earlier in the morning ( n _ n )

This day I will listen to DIM on repeat!

Diamond Silk

I am resting.

It's been a while～ ＼（》 。《）

Though it is still hurting but my heart refuse to remain silent.

Doing my best in lyrics now \(Ä)/. Wishes that pray for my best would be appreciated (* ^ _ ^ *)b



Music:
binetsu shita de shajitsu shita shinsou wa atesaki fumei no tegami to naru - RENTRER EN SOI

Itsuka..

It is hard to swallow but the truth is still the truth. I keep telling myself maybe this is just another nightmare but...

Again the tears flow inevitably.

There will be no more alien who plays around with a mineral water bottle during a press conference. No more person who inserts pictures of either his decorated nails or beautiful flowers in his blog posts. No more bassist who hates blue cheese so much he said he felt like an animal in the zoo when he ever eat it. No more wonderful artist who always keep a deadpan face after doing something funny.

It's painful, and I'm heart-broken.

Even the banner of this blog is taken from one of his posts...

I wonder if I die someday I will be able to meet him.

Only, what I know now Versailles will never be the same without him.

The world to which I will wake up tomorrow, will be the world without Jasmine You.

Sorry

Sorry Satsuki, but I think I'll pursue my dream to become a bassist.

While Cell is really my favourite bassist, it was Jasmine You who sparked my interest into bass guitar.

The lovely butterfly has escaped the cocoon of mortality
as I'm still here,
wandering alone without your voice

Rest in Peace

My heart sank as I read the news.

Jasmine You.. He's just a memory now...

I am left speechless, and in the current state of my mind I am afraid I may become fragile.

Oh, my...

And he was such a good person. I wonder how his bandmates react to this.. Painful news.

I am shaking as I typed this post. Can't believe what I just read.

Utterly unexpected. Just a few weeks after this they will release their 2nd album but...

I don't know... I am afraid this calls for a disbandment although it seems unlikely. Reminds me of Malice Mizer when Kami died.

What a bright future he had.

Such an elegent, beautiful person has left us. None can replace his... Uniqueness...

Rest in peace, Jasmine You. I am sure many fans mourn for you.

The tears will not be wasted, as it is worth to cry for him.

DANG it

Due to Jasmine You being hospitalised there is a possibility that their upcoming album's release will be postponed.

...not cool (;___;)

LYRICIST

Just like Satsuki and Ruki I want to write lyrics that has deep meaning.

I know it's hard to do but at least now I have the motivation to push myself and dive into the world of music.

I am sitting before my notebook, staring at the title of the yet-completed piece. I have to get more inspiration here.

Whether it's sincere or not, whether it's true or not, when people speak and smile after reading my pieces of work it brings such a good feeling.

I know those two I mentioned before are already far on the top, but I climbed the first step to reach them.

So please, keep reading my work. I will draw more inspiration from your emotions.

MEDICINE

Perhaps I have found a perfect band for me.

To cure me of my wounds after the disbandments of many bands whom I follow.

With lyrics beautifully written, musical composition well-done...

And I have discovered Vidoll possesses these qualities.

I will try to follow them as I followed SIVA and RENTRER EN SOI before.

SAZU

Just found out that Kiyoharu (ex-SADS) had released an album just a while ago.

Need I describe my delight? :D

Kuroyume-->SADS-->solo work= Kiyoharu \m/

'Madrigal of Decadence' is a beautiful title.

goro.goro.goro.

Waking up to the sound of thunder ringing in my ears, lazily reaching for the alarm clock to press the 'snooze' button.

Feeling the coldness, pulling the blanket to cover my whole being. A total solitude in the dim light.

Another thunder booms, my window trembles in fear. The winds howl.

Now it is time to rise and shine. :D

UNTITLED YET

Versailles will not release any new material nor performing any lives...

..until they release a new album in September :D

I think I won't stop smiling until my bedtime XD

Dear Miss _______

Vidoll's 'Ningyo'.

It is a song about a shy girl meeting with a boy whose opinion is: shyness is cute.

Also this song is about the mermaid who vanished into the sea, the one who cannot be with the prince whom she saved before.

Vidoll - Ningyo Lyrics @ LyricsTime.com

THE END OF ANOMIE

So before I can even listen to them they are now gone (=.=')

Matenrou Opera's alter ego, Anomie, is no more.

And I am really looking forward for more of 'em...

Anyway it is fine. I just can't imagine if it is Matenrou Opera who's gonna disband and the band will keep Anomie.

Now that's gonna be waaaaay dissapointing.

DIM

Whew~ done listening to the GazettE's 'DIM' for today. I lose count how many times I played those songs (^ ^).

It is a cool album by the way. I love it when they just sort of inserting a piece of music in between the songs.

While LEECH and Guren have been released separately before, this album features the re-recorded versions. The album version of 'LEECH' starts with something quite similar to the opening of 'Toguro'.

I suggest 'THE INVISIBLE WALL'. It's very addictive. I love the opening (piano?) piece.

Later.

BEFORE I DECAY

This blog post's title is of a new single from the GazettE that's going to be released in October.

Okay, less than a week after a full-album and already planning for a new single? (O_O)

Anyway I am so going to get my hands on this (, - - )/

DAI.GURiiN

Now the sky has a tint of green colour.

Or is it just a trick of light?

I am traveling across a rural area. Watching all these farms give me a peaceful feeling.

Somehow I have managed to capture the weird cloud with my phone camera while traveling in a car. The cloud's pretty odd.. It has a shape that resembles the letter 'W'...

Speaking of 'W's, I got my hands on one interesting info.

Apparently the current Kamen Rider Series will end early and replaced by a new one called Kamen Rider Double. Two people combine together to form one hero in an iron suit.

Sounds a bit... Weird. Don't you guys think so?

I am entertained by classical music now. Soothes the soul, huu~ (-. - )\

My residents awaits. I will go for now.

yami no MAI

I greeted today's morning sky with a yawn. Not a very good start for a very beautiful morning.

It's been a while since I inhale the fresh air of the dawn. I miss the particular feeling the cold wind leaves after it passes you on the skin. It will moisturise your skin and keep it healthy.

Very good for your beauty (-_^)b

I am fighting with drowsiness currently. I didn't have a good night rest so I had to drank coffee to fuel me throughout the day. I just hope it will be enough to keep me awake at least until lunchtime.

But then with just hope it won't be enough. I must have the will to do it too.

A very good morning to you all m(_ _)m

GEKKAKOU

Satsuki will release a new single CRYSTAL on August 21st! \(^ ^)/

Though I am still listening to his songs in AWAKE especially 'Veil of Maria' but I am looking forward for this.

This post's title is of a song from Versailles. Kamijo experiments with his vocals in this in the form of screams, in Latin apparently (o_o). And the musical composition of this song is a bit... 'un-Versailles' XD. Really, you can head-bang to this.

Well then. Later~ :D

REVIVAL

From now on, this blog will be known as 'MELODIC DECADENCE'.

Just feels like it. And don't you guys think the previous title is a bit... long?

As an avid Versailles fan surely I have watched the videos of ASCENDEAD MASTER. I like the stories although they are short and I can barely understand the part where Kamijo speaks in English (-.-').

About the song itself, it is very good. Praises to Hizaki and Teru for their excellent guitar performances at about 2.52. They totally take my breath away with the fast yet melodic music.

And also I have my eyes on a lot of bands now, like Forbidden days rhapsody, Secilia Luna, Juliette and Araune. I'll hunt their songs now.

Well then, adieu everyone.

BANYAIIIIIEEEE

One of the kiai I heard during the photo session. Seriously what does that suppose to mean (._.)? I bet the person (a girl I think, or some high-pitched voice of a boy) tried to say 'BANZAIIII!' but got poked somewhere by their peers (--,)

So June'09 Kendo Workshop is officially over. I'm missing all those friendly people I met already..

I should've brought a camera (>A<). Now I have to go hunt those people who had pictures of those three days *sighs*

Why do I tranced when I finally face you?

My Eyelids Got Heavier And Heavier...

...and slowly I sank to the floor and slept.

The last thing I saw before I drifted into the dark was the blue blue sky with those fluffy comfy-looking clouds.

Then to break that sweet moment...

A friend slapped my shoulder. "Wake up, I think that's your car."

I was between crying and laughing at that time.

Why do you have to wake me up at this very moment? Can't you see I am having a date with the thoughts in my head? (T-T)

Ahaha, now I'm going home to my comfortable, warm room. You fools will still be here under the torturing sun while I sleep on my bed. >:D

Okay, what am I talking about?

I just got home from a kendo workshop and after enduring all the trainings for about 7 hours I felt... Empty...

I don't know. Maybe I have spent all my energies trying to keep my eyes on the seniors and still be able to see all those cuties :P

Let me rest for a while, then it's time for me to go KURAYZEEE~ (^ ^ )v

Re:Turn

Lately I have been listening to Gackt.

Perhaps I have regain my interest in his style again xD.

Been listening to his 'Death Wish', 'Redemption' and 'Journey through the Decade'.

I am still a bit uneasy when I watched Vanilla PV. His dance moves... :s

Anyways, go GACKT!! XD

forbidden days rhapsody

I have my eyes on this new band. Know why?

Mika (ex RENTRER EN SOI) is with them!!

Oh my god, I am very happy with this news!

I totally love his drumming skills when he was still playing for RES.

cynical NARCISSIST

Ahh, although it is midnight yet I still can't sleep... Must've been all those sweet stuffs I had today (-.-')...

I wanna watch ASCENDEAD MASTER's full PV... The short preview is really dissatisfying. I mean, why can't they just show the whole vid?!

Let me cry before the dozing glass. XD

BACK TO POP

I'm listening to my old J-Pop songs! (^-^)v

It's been a while since I played them.

So hello Yuna Ito, Hikki, GReeeeN, M-Flo, Tommy February6, Tamaki Nami, Sawajiri Erika and lots more.
Hisashiburi desu...

Itte...

I managed to miss my steps while I was descending the stairs.

Fortunately I grabbed the railings at the very moment. As the feeling of relief washed over me I realised my grip had weakened.

I tumbled down the stairs and hit the floor with a sickening thud.

I think I sprained my right knee (>A<). It really hurts when I walk.

How clumsy can I be...

Change of Heart

Although a bit unwell, today I bring a good news.

From now on, 'alice nine.' will be known as 'Alice Nine'. Without the fullstop at the end. (YAAY!!)

I am sure glad they did this. Their previous name really confused a lot of people before.

Until the sunrise. Goodnight.

Taion

I think I have a slight fever... (>_<)

This is what you get after training in the rain. Damn you seniors for forcing us the juniors to 'jog' this afternoon! (Don't take me seriously here.)

The title of this post is of a song by 'the GazettE', one of my current favourite. It really blends sorrow and aggression together well.

Maybe I'll write my review of that song. In the meantime I have to rest...

P/s: Taion means 'body temperature'

NYAPPY 100TH POST

Wohoo, 100th post!

Anyway there are so many good news regarding my favourite VKei artists. Firstly about Miyavi's new song entitled 'Super hero'. Gonna sample this one later.

Secondly, about Iori-san (ex-SIVA)'s new band 'cocklobin'. They're gonna release new stuffs. I am so gonna check 'em out, I'm missing Iori's guitar solo.

Thirdly, Alice Nine (typeset: alice nine.) will release a new single. It's about time since last year. They even have a new look.

I know, there are too many things to buy, new things to try and a whole good reason to cry...

HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO GAIN ENUFF MONEY TO BUY THESE STUFFS?!

Okay, let's see... Versailles' ASCENDEAD MASTER, cocklobin's debut album, Alice Nine's single, the GazettE's album, and my personal needs...

Gonna be a tough year for me (T^T)

LAUGHSTAR

Hyah-ho!

It has been a while (>_<"). I just can't post due to difficulty in time-management.

I will strive to divide my time well \(ë)/.

My resting place is now filled with the melody from T.M.Revolution. It really feels like a club tonight XD. In fact, I think I begin to annoy my neighbours due to the heavy, chaotic beats.

It can't be helped. It IS T.M.Revolution.

Until the sunrise. Good night.

HOWL ~kaze no naka~

I wonder why after I tear the dark clouds I still can't see
Is it you the one I truly miss?

The melody the wind during the night
They lull me to sleep
Opening up the memories I have long conceal

On the verge of tears
I run and shout your name on top of my lungs
Hugging the fleeting shadow of you
If only you can stop for a while
I just want to touch your face before you go
Eternally will be with me

Burdened by the guilt of wounding you
I try to apologise
but you are nowhere to be found

I try to convey my apology in the wind
I want to hold you
with this withered hands
I will carve your name inside my mind

I embrace the echoing sorrow
Wiping up tears I now sit alone
Deprived of another pair of hands
I fall back to my previous self
I keep trying to forget you
But your smile really hurt me so

Just let me be in peace
I don't even know why I end up here
Letting you go
I only hope you'll ever forgive me
For it is the only thing I seek from you now

Forgive my dying breath
I shall use it to say your name

To Infinity

I am so tired. My whole body is sore. I got four blisters on my feet (>A<).

After the bushido training I really, really felt great. Although great pleasure has a great price. Now I cannot run fast due to the pain on my feet.

I was told by the seniors that my strike is quite powerful but it lacks speed. The strength in my strike can break my opponent's defences but if they are quick they just dodge and counter.

The seniors showed it to me when they just take two steps back when I charged at them my attack will miss.

Lucky they were using bamboo swords. If not then I will be headless.

Then I will haunt the roses in their dreams...

Koi

Right now Aki is really tired. He doesn't even know if his heart is still beating or not.

Right now his hands are not filled by another. He is missing the feeling of twenty fingers.

Right now he is trying to rest. Emptying his mind of distractions that make him restless.

Right now Aki is very lonely. He actually wants to hear the annoying sound that always wakes him up.

Right now he is keeping his distance from the others. He is concealing the truth deep within.

Right now his chest is aching. He is confused.

Right now he is reading a book. Pleasing himself with words of the dead.

Right now he is smiling without reason. He just has the urge to do so.

Go and listen to the requiem, beneath the veil.

Tsuki no Namida

I watch the moon cry
the illuminated window creaked
as I lean forward the cold glass
Touching the flaws
Heavy sigh escape my lips
Why should this happen?

The stars embracing
soothing the killing loneliness
One by one they sing with haunting voices that stay

Cold breath on the lily
Forgive me...
Those hands are not grasped
Those tears do not belong on the ground
They are suppose to be on my shoulder

Silver light fill my place
Sitting on the quivering bench
I wonder if we will make it there
The heat from your hands
it still lingers on my cheeks

The dawn is approaching
The dark is retreating
Shall I be there?
Shall I break the binding fate that shackles you to the sad past?

Just tell me you are still there
Just a single heartbeat will be enough
I long for your voice

Miyavi

Let's talk Miyavi.

Okay, so he's one of the Visual Kei J-Rocker out there. What's special about him?

He is UNIQUE in his own way, that is.

He started his musical career when he was 18 years old I think. He joined a band called Duè le Quartz and stayed with them until its disbandment in 2002. From there he started his solo project.

That's when he really shines. And he captivates me with his music.

I knew about him from a friend. She suggested me to listen to his music.

At first I was like 'yeah sure...' but upon hearing his 'Dear My Friend'...

I knew a good song when I heard it.

I found myself searching for more of his songs. They are very addictive.

Lately he faces many negative messeges and emails from his own fans. Just imagine the people we love have turned against us. That must hurt a lot.

The reason for this is when he announced his graduation from PS Company. After a while he again announced something unexpected: his marriage to a J-Pop singer Melody.

Although he is very pissed, he still says 'I love you all' to those fans.

Less than a month ago he launched his own company, 'J-Glam Inc.'. And he revealed his actual name, Takamasa Ishihara.

I have high hopes for him.

And I will continue to support him.

Hisashiburi

Ah, it has been a while since my last post.

Again I apologise (>_<). Tight schedules hinder me from posting almost anything. It is very hard to find a slightest, tiny, tiny space to insert 'blogging'.

Anyway a toast for my favourite vocalist: Satsuki (ex-Rentrer en Soi)!! I have been given the honor to listen to 'Awake'. Now I crave for more of his songs.

Lately I have been listening to 'Headache Man' by the GazettE. It has meaningful lyrics and we can feel the anger in this song.

I hope I will have time to update more tomorrow.

Good night dear roses. Into the melody bath...

So Beautiful...

Imagine the sunset.

Imagine the way the sun shines her light onto our faces as we watch her dissapear into the horizon.

Got that?

Now, instead of the sun, picture the moon in a similar fashion.

That was what I saw just now.

It's not that the moon emits its own light, but the way its yellow figure sinks into the dark...

It is very beautiful.

Too bad it was very brief. The moment I saw it immediately I know if I went into my room to get a camera I could lost it forever. It happened so fast. At first it was a full circle visible. Then after about 10 seconds a quarter of it was swallowed by the dark edge.

*sighs*

My very first look to a 'moonset'...

In the Silent Night

I am all alone now. The only sound in my house is the song from my stereos.

Luckily I have something to do. At least I won't be bothered while I finish up my work.

Now I want to apologise to anyone that happen to stumble upon this blog of mine because of the delayed posts. I am still a sophomore okay? Paperworks and stuffs, as usual...

I can't wait for Satsuki's solo album 'AWAKE'. Honestly he scared me when I saw his current picture, the one with the long straight hair. I thought it was some random J-Pop female singer but on further inspection...

Support him dear RES fans. Don't let him alone in the waves of melody else he'll drown and lost forever.

Listen to his 'La Lune' at his official MySpace. It reminds me of the old RENTRER EN SOI from their Sphire Croid era...

Thank You

One of my family members just sent me a beautiful, one-page long poem.

It is really touching.

I'll keep it forever.

Atama ga...

This is not good.

I now suffer the worst headache I have ever had since Disember.

My head hurts.
My limbs feel numb.
My eyes droopy.

The heat wave today was too much for me.

Might as well call it a day already.

Good night dear roses. I shall go to my resting place now.

KURAGAMI

I miss my long flowing hair... (T-T)

Cutting it short is one decision I totally regret until now.

I will try to refrain my desire to go to the saloon and get a haircut. X)

I just like the way it hugged my neck and ears. Made me feel secure, believe it or not.

When I was a kid I had this long straight hair that almost went over my shoulders. Such sweet times...

I'll give it a couple of months to grow back to its original glory.

Life and Death

Inevitably when I think of births...

In my mind automatically I pictured a tombstone (-.-')

I know it's a bit morbid but...

I can't help it.

Anyways this morning I only had about 3 hours of sleep because someone called me and insisted a 'friendly' conversation between us. Now I feel very sleepy...

Sorry for the lack of updates, minna-san. I've drowned into paperworks and melody.

I want to crawl into my coffin so badly but I just can't.

It's not everyday you turn 117 so...

I have to enjoy it to the fullest v(^ ^), kyaaaaAAAA!!! PARTY!!!

I'm listening to the mini-album MEGIDDO by RENTRER EN SOI. I love BAPTISM the most.

Well then.

rayguland

My whole body is sore... Been days since I had an enough complete rest so I am quite exhausted.

Sigh........

I think due to joining kendo I have changed (at least a little), cuz some of my friends commented on the way I walk (>_<). I just hope it's not a bad one.

Right now I am listening to Legacy by Vistlip. The song is very beautiful. Shame on me not even bother to try it before (-.-').

And also, I think I will get SIVA's last album (if there is any...) because they are my favourite band. It was Cell's bass guitar in the song 'CONCEALMENT' that attracted me last year...

Anyway as a die-hard fan of Rentrer en Soi, I will try my utmost to get Satsuki's solo album (^ ^).

Let's see if I can somehow persuade someone to order it for me.

By the way the title's just something random that popped into my mind as I cruise around the city just now.

BUGRIGHT

I once visited a friend's house.

After talking for a while he invited me to his family's entertainment zone, that is the electronic sanctuary.

When I entered, the first thing I noticed was a huge table in the middle with 3 or 4 desktop computers on top of it.

Out of curiosity I asked him.

"Hey, what's the point having these desktops while you guys have laptops?"

To which he answered with a shrug and a look that said "don't know, don't care".

I will remember to abstain myself from asking that kind of question again.

Money truly is an endless thing. Scary little papers.

Dear Gackt Fans Everywhere

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SAYONARA SIVA

This is a totally heart-breaking news...

SIVA has announced that they will be disbanding after 25th July... (T-T)

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO~

I'll miss Cell's bass guitar really bad, and Kairi's vocals too.

WhyyyyyyyyYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY???

First Iori, then the whole band. Hope they won't say 'personal reasons' this time (;___;)

I'm listening to their songs right now. They are one of my favourite bands so this is very painful for me to bear...

I'll cry like crazy now...

Wake-up Call

Okay.

I had fallen asleep while revising Mathematics cuz I was soooo tired. \(>o<)/

Just after 10 minutes or so, from my stereo suddenly a heavy guitar sound screamed.

I was like, "oh god, THUNDERS IN MY ROOM?!" (it was raining heavily okay...).

It turned out to be Rentrer en Soi's 'Re-birth'...

I have to make sure to turn the bass booster off before I go to sleep... (>_<)

I'm going to study now. Thank you Satsuki-tachi. xD

The Confined Space

I have my own sanctuary...

It is the place where everything is perfect for me. A place to escape my troubles, salvaging every pieces of my life I have managed to lose.

Combine that with the available sound system guaranteed to blow your mind off with the bass. That's why when I just receive new beautiful songs I'm sure my neighbours will not get enough sleep v(^-^')

Right now a song titled FANTASY performed by alice nine. is blaring across my room.

If only I have a bass guitar...

New Interest

Tonight I stumbled upon one blog concerning J-Rock and Visual Kei (well, what do you expect from me?).

I went through the contents, scanning for names of bands or artists that I know when suddenly...

A song kicked into my speakes.

The flow of guitar chords struck me so hard the song was etched into my heart immediately.

I looked around the blog and saw the name of the song.

"migite - ellegarden"

I don't know anything about this band but I know a good song when I hear it.

Later I found myself typing the song's name onto the search engines listed to download it.

The song really is awesome! (-_^)b

By the way I don't think they are Visual Kei band. They don't have the looks, ehee... And their musical style reminds me of Blink 182.

I'm off to my melodic realm. Adieu everyone.

P/s: 'migite' means 'right hand'.

Visible Yet Unseen

There exists a window in everyone.

Depends on the people, some open it really wide while others may choose to close it tight and lock it.

In certain ways, the window is the path to a soul's heart. It leads directly to the true personality sometimes deeply hidden and emerge only during certain times.

No matter how hard everyone try to deny it, there is another side of us that perhaps still lays dormant. It is not necessary this other side is an evil one, it can be the much loving and kinder than the dominant part.

There is a certain way to wake the dormant part, and it varies with each person.

Everytime I talk to someone, the window of mine will gradually open, but whenever they nearly reach it and peek into my heart immediately I will stop them. Then I will close the window and draw the curtain shut.

I am still pretty naive of the world. While the world revolves I still dawdle and wonder when will I understand the way it moves so I won't be left behind.

This way although I am slow to learn but at least I can keep up with the rest of the peers.

Well then.

Cleaning the Dust

Ah, yeah. I haven't update this blog for some time.

Paperworks hinder me from posting something. Lack of idea of thing to post about also contribute to this.

Today is April 1st.

Honestly, DON'T try to trick me. It just pisses me off when I believe in something you guys told me only to have you laughing at my back. (-.-')

And we are supposed to not get mad at those right?

I'd say the rules of April Fool is quite unfair.

Shou said once to his fans before a concert, "Right, let's ignore the rules!!"

Soooo, if you guys really wanna say those two words (April Fool) to me, prepare for some consequences okay? XD

It is not good to lie at your friends. Chances are, they'll hate you after that.

Even though they might laugh along with you when you tell them the truth, I am sure deep inside some of them will curse and swear to not believe in anything you say.

That would be quite troublesome, isn't it?

Finally!!

I am very excited right now {{o(^¡^)o}}

I just checked the internet and saw something about Versailles...

THEY WILL RELEASE THEIR FIRST MAJOR SINGLE!!

Titled 'ASCENDEAD MASTER', it will be available on 24th June. Pre-order it now fellow fans!! (^-^)b

Ah, and it will be in three versions;
'ASCENDEAD MASTER' type A
'ASCENDEAD MASTER' type B
'ASCENDEAD MASTER' type C
'ASCENDEAD MASTER' regular edition

The regular edition will be 1000yen and the other three will be 1300yen. Hope I can get the other version... (>A<)

Revamped

Today it is inevitably hot (-.-')

As usual when I am exposed to this kind of temperature I feel light-headed (>_<)

But this is what living in Brunei means. As this country is located near the equator it receives more sunlight...

Ah, I am talking Geography now xD

I still have paperworks due on 30th, and I haven't managed to finish them now.

Tonight I will work like crazy! (^-^')

Let the haunting voice be my company while I cruise through my pains.

I just hope the night will forgive me if I somehow unable to finish them all...

AIN SOPH AUR

Finally...

The honor of listening to the best of Rentrer en Soi has been upon me.

I am trying to overdose myself with the musical beauty of their songs.

I don't know which one is the most soothing to me, but my favourite for now is TO INFINITY. Such musical composition is very pleasent and calming. Especially the haunting voice and the bass guitar.

They really are talented. Never fail to quench my thirst of their aestheticism.

I am off to my personal space of melodic sanctuary.

Akatsuki, ehee...

The moon my sanctuary...

Solo Rentrer

I think it was two weeks ago when Satsuki announced that he's going solo.

It will be great (^-^)

It's just the other Rentrer en Soi fans that spoke nonsense about his future career...

Will he still retain his previous image?

Will the musical style sound as good as before?

If he's gonna join a new band won't the musical style differ greatly?

Will he switch genre?

Honestly I can't imagine him switching to J-Pop *shudders*. Anyone knows Gackt? 'Vanilla' PV, ehee... XD.

I am listening to Unending Sanctuary right now and looking for their last mini-album 'Megiddo'. 'AIN SOPH AUR'? I doubt I'll find it here (>_<).

Well then, I'm off to my secret garden.

Dissolving

The pair of hands meant to hold mine
why do they now tremble?
The truth behind the sparkling pearls is confusing
I don't even know if I'm supposed to embrace you now
but at least, please let me caress your hair
because the wind had blown them disheveled
Don't push me away, I just want to help
I won't wipe away your tears, let the sorrow stay
I'll just try to nurse the ache of your heart
No, you don't have to tell me everything
I understand, it is rather painful for you to say
So I won't force you, it's up to you to decide
Don't be ashamed of yourself, it is human to cry
Let those sweet tears fall, don't refrain them
I won't wipe them either, just let them fall
Let it all go...

I won't leave you
so have a good cry now
Lean on me if you're falling
grab my shoulders if you're falling
I shall be your everything
but first, let my fingers intertwine yours...

Eternally Blue

Ah, lately...

The sky is very aesthetically heart-aching.

I am watching it right now with a sweet voice beside me.

Truly a sight to be marvelled *sigh*

I will do my best to digitally freeze it o(^¡^)o

Streams

I don't know why...

Lately I always think.

What will I become 10 years from now...

Where I will be in the future...

Until one morning I found myself greatly depressed.

I refused to pull the covers of my window because I was too ashamed to face the morning light.

Crystal of tears fell onto my cupped hands right in front my face.

I covered my eyes because I didn't want to see my own reflection on the mirror.

I felt guilty because I might have hurt someone I care so much yet I don't know I did.

I realized how small and puny I am when I'm alone.

I promised myself to treat everyone better but still...

The depression still stayed.

It was persistent, torturing me until I cried again.

Now the feeling is still there, waiting until I let my guard down and strike me until I succumbs...

And the tears will fall again, I know it...

The Face That Haunts Me

T-t-this girl...

Stereopony

I was browsing through the internet when I saw this relatively new single.

It was titled 'Namida no Mukou' by Stereopony.

So I took the opportunity to sample it and...

I find it soothing.

In other words, it is a great song.

Out of curiosity I found myself searching for the group's info.

What surprised me is the age of the members...

Here's a brief info about them:

Aimi (lead guitar/vocals), 4th September 1990.
Nohana (bass guitar), 16th September 1989
Shiho (drums), 18th October 1990.

They are just 2-3 years older than me...

I am so jealous they have music schools in Japan.

Focus on Your Ki...

Kame...

Hame...

Haaaa!

Yeah, I have watched the movie =)

I wonder what Shou-tachi think of the movie since they are such a Dragon Ball otaku (o_O)

E-e-everyone!

It was dissapointing...

At least they keep one thing from the manga series...

The power of Goku's head! Or specifically his hair, ehee...

He tried to slick it backwards with the aid of hairgel but failed.

Ah... I won't spoil the story for those of you who want to watch it (^-^)

Hello Dear My Bride

"Dark, gloomy, passive and melancholic. These are the ingredients for the video of Distress and Coma. Ruki's the chef, while Reita, Aoi, Kai and Uruha are the cooks."

One of the previews I read about the GazettE's newest PV. This one is the funniest xD.

I know Ruki and Kai can cook, but I'm not sure about the other band members... And Reita had said once that he didn't like Kai's cooking =).

The mysterious ballerina in the confined room... She had been haunting Ruki in his dreams. Thanks to her he was able to gain enough inspiration for 'Distress and Coma'.

Samui

It is raining...

My fingers are icy cold and white. I know my lips are pale because I can see my reflection on the tiled wall.

Freezing cold...

I can't feel the keys while I typed this post.

Shivering...

The world will witness! The cold, cold man!

...

I yearn for a hot water bath...

Draw...

Today I will velge myself deeper into the way of the sword.

I shall let out the saint of the sword that hides within me, ehee...

Although my reflexes are not very good... I will try to improve myself to be able to dodge every blows (>_<)


Everyone! Wish me luck (^-^)

I am a fan of the manga Vagabond you know... =D

A Kid With A Box Of Crayon

Ever watched this scene: a little child given a box of crayon and a blank sheet of paper?

Then they will draw something that they have in mind.

Ah... I do so envy the pure mind and innocense of the children...

Because they have not received proper education their instincts are unaltered.

Sometimes when I looked upon what they have drawn...

I can't figure out what it is xD

But in some sense I know they worked hard to sketch what it is in their mind on a piece of paper as accurately as they can.

Remember That You Are Mortal

Just for your information, BUCK-TICK has just released the album 'memento mori' on 18/19 of February.

I have heard much of BUCK-TICK and their successful career. The band's name is a wordplay for the Japanese word 'bakuchiku' and like the name implies, they want to become well-known and standing out in the music industry. They have experimented with many musical styles and are very experienced. They are one of the legends that started Visual Kei movement in the 80's.

I'll try listening to them later.

Descant of Joy

Somehow I had managed to crawl back into my very own sanctuary.

I have survived another day, I said to myself.

The sun has make me suffer. It burns me and I nearly succumb.

The miseries of the past have reawaken and with its wake comes the pain, depriving me of my strength.

All I want now is to simply rest, and rest, and rest. Until the fatigue have fade away, I shall not be disturbed.

Miyavi's Decision

A friend told me something just an hour before..

At first I can't believe it but then he asked me to check on the web myself...

Dear Miyavi fans and supporters, I hereby announce that he is leaving PSC...

I have mixed feelings right now... I don't know if I'm sad or happy or angry or dissapointed... I can't be sure myself.

It is true, he's leaving PSC this year. A graduation after ten years being with the company he said.

Please don't send him any angry fanmails. I am certain that he have something in his mind.

Perhaps he will start a new label/company, like Mana. A lot of fans hope for this.

Wish him lucks, fellow supporters.

Achoo!

Ah, I think I caught a cold (>_<)

I am dizzy right now. I think I'm only half-awake when I typed this.

Just my luck...

I must do something but now...

I crave for wasabi...

Kinda weird, no?

I don't want sushi but I want to eat wasabi...

What is happening to me? (-.-')

It has Come

Everyone!

I apologise for the lack of updates lately (>_<)

I'm just having a couple of problems right now. (-.-')

Nothing to worry though.. It's not something serious. I am relaxing right now (-_-)y-~

Anyway I'm downloading many Alice Nine and Versailles video now so...

I'm gonna watch them later.

Nyappy nyappy, everyone.

The Cold Wind

Lately people around me are having problems...

They are projecting this 'stress aura' toward others. Even now I feel depressed just by talking to them. (>_<)

Some of them even told me they would rather die. f(-.-')

I don't like it when people said that...

Why can't we just live happily without looking back to the painful memories?

Why can't we just keep moving forward?

Sometimes I will shed tears for their simple outlook of life.

Why do they want to discard theirs while others wish that they will live forever?

People whose thoughts before sleeping is 'I hope I will rise to the morning sun'.

..........

It is raining now.

I hope the purity will cleanse the world of tainted thoughts.

Eve

Now it is 18th February.

Today is the birthday of Rei (Danger Gang).

A toast to all those celebrating any special event today.

Dopamine.. What?

Teru really cracks me up xD.

Students have been asking him how to study efficiently and he replied with a brief lesson into biology.

Now I have found the mystic connection (^.^)/.

Reflex

This cannot be helped but...

Whenever my playlist reached 'Vision of You' by Rentrer en Soi, automatically I will crank up the volume and set it on 'repeat'. Then I will listen to it until my head throbs because of the chaotic beats.

Just imagine, on the first day I got it, the play count already reached 100...

It is very addictive.

It is very unfair that Satsuki have a wide range of vocals.

Hateru...

Lately I always feel sleepy during the day and wide awake during the night.

What is happening to me? f(-.-')

Right now I feel like succumbing to the desire to close my eyes...

By the way I watched my friend playing with siblings yesterday (^_^).

I totally envy that...

I am not good with children (>_<). And I have this uncanny ability to make some babies cry when they are brought near me. Very weird...

Maybe it is my hair that scares them *laugh*.

Dimmed Vision

Just got home from a carnival with my friends.

I am so tired now (>_<)...

But I had so much fun today d( -_^). I got to enjoy the carnival games, although I could not win in the 'Tin Alley' *laugh*. It was hard targetting the cans with a small ball. Guess I do not have a keen eye... f(^.^')

And there was also this 'haunted house'. "ENTER AT YOUR OWN RISK!" was what the signboard screamed. It looked pretty scary though (-.-'). I psyched myself to try it out and managed to keep a straight, blank face *laugh*. It was very dark inside, and it smelled like formaldehyde (I think).

Now I'm worn out... I slept for two hours only last night so imagine the fatigue and sleepiness that accumulated... *sigh*

I shall return to my resting place to commit noble deeds.

Secret Strawberry

I really want to watch Rentrer en Soi's last live...

I will try to find a video of it.

Reason for disbanding: it was said that the whole band had come to conclusion that they had reached all their dreams and achieved what they desired as a band. After a discussion they all agreed to make this very painful decision.

One of their fans stated that he is glad that Rentrer en Soi disbanded like that. His reason is: they disbanded during their successful era (they just released Megiddo when they announced it). It was better off this way before the band encounter any serious problem, making them infamous rather than famous.

I read their profile just now and seriously it touched me deep inside (>_<).

The link to this profile:
http://www.jame-world.com/us/database-artist.php?id=167

I know that Jasmine You (Versailles) had come to their last live and he said that it was very sad.

Thank you for all the good works, Satsuki-tachi. (ToT)/~~~

Silence

Sometimes it is very comforting if I can just lay motionless in my coffin.

Just laying down, not moving, watching the ceiling blankly, feeling my own heartbeats, listening to my own breath...

I realised that lately I did not get enough time to relax. It would be nice if I can rest now.

I pray that the phone will not ring for the next two hours.

I am off to my own world of thoughts.

Wait a Minute

Hey, the morning sky today is not bad!

So beautiful!

I can hear the feathery wings beating and singing.

Ah, I'm so lucky to ever witness this sight...

I'll make sure to freeze the moment digitally.

Yo hoo~

This is the sleepless Haravi blogging (^o^).

I could not fall asleep last night. It was really annoying (>_<).

Anyway I went out to watch the half-past five's sky and I saw the moon.

It was really a marvel. Might as well one of the most beautiful thing I ever seen. The way the dark clouds surrounded it and the light it reflected... It took my breath away for a while.

So I tried to photograph it and... Well, the results were dissapointing.

All the photos were totally pitch-black *laugh*.

I really need to learn more about photography if I want to capture the aestheticism of the sky (^ ^').

So I'll strife to make myself better.

Need to go now. The sun's already out.

Adieu everyone XD.

Some Nicknames That I Have

Oh yeah.. Everyone must have at least one nickname right?

Me myself have several actually =D. So let me share some with you all.

(1) my screen name: HARAVI. No, it is not my real name. It is a pun for 'HARAjuku VIsual Kei'. It was inspired by one of my Friendster contact when he said that he is a Harajuku-slash-Visual-Kei fan. I found that catchy, so I started to use it as 'HarajukuVK' at Japanforum.com. Then I discovered an English name: Halevy. This too, caught my attention so I just wrote it in Katakana (characters for non-Japanese words). It read 'HA-RE-BI'. I decided to combine both and from there I got 'Haravi' xD.

(2) Aki. This was given by my fellow J-Rockers and seniors. It was derived from my real name and it means 'Autumn' in Japanese. I am pretty comfortable with this name and they still call me by this. The only thing is...

This name is a bit girlish (>_<).

And one of my seniors attached 'ko' to it, making it 'Akiko'. It is very, very irritating when someone calls me that (-_-').

(3) the infamous name Jemo. This was given to me by my fellow 2008 classmates.

The meaning behind it?

A clue: in the actual typeset it is 'J-Emo'.

This was because of my hairstyle last year. I had bangs that almost cover my left eye and they assumed that it was Emo hairstyle *sigh..*. The bangs was nessessary for any of the J-Rock hairstyle that I wanted (and I'm thinking of Hitsugi's of Nightmare).

What used to be an insulting name now becomes a joke. Now they only occasionally use it to get my attention, in which I will respond almost immediately v(^o^)v.

(4) the name Viie. This was given to me by my cousin when I asked her help to come up with a new name. She noted that nearly all the names that I suggested contained the letter 'V' XD (oh.. Busted..) which she correctly assumed that it was my favourite letter *laugh*.

I think that's all for now. I need to rest my fingers.

Ore no mono wa, ore no mono. Anta no mono wa, ORE NO MONO

The opening verse for Oresama Shikou by Miyavi (^o^).

I still think this song is awesome since the first time I listen to it.

Anyway...

I was reading all Rentrer en Soi's previous posts yesterday and saw one particular picture.

It was a picture of the whole band, with one empty vacant chair.

Also Takumi mentioned that he would get mad if anyone cropped their own picture and paste it on the empty seat.

Well, personally I think it's like an indirect invitation (^^,).

Nyahahahahaha.

Well then. I need to go. Have to figure out the mystic connection between biology and J-Rock.

And oh, by the way I really think Satsuki's shoes in that picture is cool. Any idea where I can get shoes like that? XD

[You guys can see this picture in their blog translation. Just click on the link 'Rentrer en Soi blog translation" and scroll down. It's there.]

At Last

Today it was 9.30am.

I am truly satisfied. (^ ^)

But now I am still sleepy so I am thinking what should I do to stay awake for the rest of the day.

By the way the sky have a tint of azure beyond that clouds. Makes me happy seeing that. (- -,)

I just got three songs from An Cafe and right now listening to them. Maybe I'll review them later.

Well then. I'm off to cook something.

Enuff

Actually I'm tired of people who always say "I want to die", "The world won't be sorry to lose me", "Unprecious life. Why shouldn't I end it myself?"

Actually you are lucky enough to live.

Instead of wasting your time mulling over your past you should work harder, in order to achieve your desired life.

Isn't it right?

If you keep thinking that you are useless eventually you will rot, and you will not be able to do anything anymore.

Don't get me wrong. I'm not telling you it's wrong to grieve over some loss. It's okay to grieve, but please, don't be in that state forever.

Dwelling in the past won't change the future.

And memories are nothing but ghosts of the past.

Nyahahaha

Right now I'm having spicy tofu with green tea (^^,)

Really delicious.

Skyscraper Opera

Anyone wanna know what time did I wake up to today?

12.45pm. (T.T)

But then, I just had a party last night so it is pretty understandable right? (^o^)v

And hey, for the first time in this two weeks (I think) I saw the BLUE SKY! Really miss it very much. The clouds were cool, one of them reminded me of a jellyfish =D.

I'm looking for Matenrou Opera songs right now *squints at the screen*. Which one should I listen to first?

Well then. Adieu everyone XD.

Man...

I still woke up at about 11.25am...

I should not give up!

This time I'll use Protoplasm by Rentrer en Soi XD. Maybe Satsuki-tachi can help me this time \(ë)/.

Anyway check out my latest link to Versailles blog translation. I found it out last night.

There is just one problem..

Kamijo's Ameblo blog's latest translation is not there lately... Also the owner of that site noted that he will stop translating if he doesn't receive comments indicating that his works are being read (-.-').

.........

Okay, make that TWO problems.

Anyway the sky is still bright white when I pulled the covers.

I miss the azure colour of the sky... (T.T)

Well then. I have to go to feed.

Hope It Works

This time I'm using Miyavi's Oresama Shikou...

I hope his screams will help me to rise and terrorize the day *laughes*.

Well then. I'm off to my coffin.

Shiroi

I woke up very late today *laughes*.

As soon as I opened my eyes I had the feeling that I overslept. So I reached for my phone and lazily stared at the display.

"11.25am"

Whaaaaaaattttt!!!

Quickly I jumped out my coffin and pulled the curtains. One look and whoa, it looked like it snowed in Brunei.

The sky was totally white! Clouds everywhere!

Also when I slid open the windows immediately the chilling winds greeted me.

Guess the song Wana by The Back Horn didn't make a good wake-up alarm *smiles*.

This time I'll use Wait and Bleed by Slipknot for waking me up from my slumber XD. Or maybe Psychosocial (this song really rocks).

Well then.

Wounded but for the Fans...

Kyo, vocalist of Dir en Grey.

Well known for his shocking outfits and make-ups during lives.

I was shown a picture of him before a live concert. And in the picture he looked like an escapee from the hospital after surviving a car accident the night before.

My thoughts at that moment: " Whoa, he's gonna perform with that? Isn't it a little... Too much?"

Of course he performed with that outfit and make-ups. And to my amazement the crowd loved it very much.

Now I respect him very much although at first I was a bit intimidated by his looks (^^').

Well then.

Apology

Again, I haven't updated for a while...

Freakin' busy with paperworks for school.

Recently I realised that Kyo's screaming in Child Prey is cool *laugh*.

Also my fellow J-Rocker (Fau~chan) posted about the GazettE. They're gonna release a new single. I'll make sure I'll get it as soon as it is available. Thanks for the info anyway, Fau-chan!!

Highlighted song for today: of course Child Prey by Dir en Grey!! Musical aestheticism is there!

Well then.

Lightheaded

After weeks not being touched by the sunlight...

I felt a bit dizzy after going out in the sun.

But I'm glad it didn't rained today. Sunlight is not good for me, but walking in the rain can do worse. (x_O)

I hope everyone get enough vitamin D! *laugh*

Well then.

This is Embarrassing...

I just got home from playing the game DotA with my friends..

Somehow we got our butts kicked by 5 AI-controlled opposing heroes. *laugh*

A team of 5 AI versus 3 human brains plus 2 AI... And AI team was victorious.

Very embarrassing.

Hideously embarrassing.

Only by working together we managed to beat the AI team in the second round. ^-^V

Have to rest my eyes. Bye for now.

Zzz...

It is dark outside. Very dark. Aside from the streetlamps the only source of light is the moon. Pretty creepy...

...but I love watching it. *sighing*

I just found the translation for Shinwa by Rentrer en Soi and man, it is so sad... It is so emotional and melodic... Very melancholic I can feel the sorrow in every words.

It is a perfect song. *cries silently*

Why did a good band like them have to disband? I just started listening to them and three days later they announced their disbanding... I will give anything just to see them as a band again. If I can I would go to Japan and meet each of them and demand an actual reason for the decision.

Too bad I'm just a little kid who was salvaged with their songs from drowning in the sea of despairs. My chances of meeting them might be 0% cuz I'm just a nobody, a needle in a haystack. A fan from thousands of fans worldwide.

Right now I can hear dogs barking somewhere far. It must be pretty late. Better try to catch some sleep. I have work to do this morning. *laughs*

Well then.

I hope I will dream of the world of roses again.

Oyasumi, everyone...

Shinwa

Performed by Rentrer en Soi. I'm listening to it now. The flow is really soothing.

Satsuki's vocals + piano = beautiful lullaby.

There's also Shinwa -Seikon MIX-, but personally I like the original one better.

Satsuki is well known for his emotional singing style. I just hope he will join a new group soon. His vocals is so unique.

Well then, later everyone...

Yo!

I haven't updated this blog for quite a while. Busy lately TT_TT...

So! Finally I'll update now. What should I post about?

The Vampire Chronicles by Anne Rice. Yeah, finished reading the Vampire Lestat about a week ago. 'Monsieur Rock Star' had awoken 'Those Who Must Be Kept' by his music. Also there was a moment where Lestat hid himself in a room where he read many books before the candles. He was injured badly by the vampire child Claudia after she tricked him.

*sigh*...

I'm going to update my J-Rock songs later. I'll search for Danger Gang, Exist Trace, The Candy Spooky Theatre and Alice Nine.

Well then.

Viznavi?

It stands for Visual Navigation. Refers to Visual Kei being my fashion guide. Although, I may not look like it but I promise I will dress like a J-Rocker soon (>_<)

I want alice nine.'s newest album VANDALIZE. I'm thinking of ordering it online from cdjapan.com... But meanwhile I will cruise through many music stores here for any Japanese Rock album so please contact me if you know something about it.

Shou's been posting about Final Fantasy Dissidia (do I spell the name correctly?). He's such a game-freak, never realise it before XD.. Now I really wanna play that game..

Uh Oh

I am kidnapped *laugh*.

The sempais brought me to a restaurant in Gadong but the area is pretty unfamiliar to me. Not to mention the lack of people here o_O.

Of course I'm not eating. This is scary (^_^)".

One thing is, they are professional in this kind of stuff. Firstly, distract the victim. In my case they distracted me with PSP loaded with the 20th Anniversary Final Fantasy Dawn of Souls (hey, it's really a nice game!).

Anyone knows where I am? I'm pretty sure I saw a construction site nearby...

Siva = Big Wood

I found out that Kairi and the gang decided the name of their band through rock-paper-scisors. The winner get to name the band. The proposed name were pretty funny, though. Some of it didn't ring ''JRock'.

Thanks Kairi. If it wasn't for him I would be a fan of 'Big Wood' (TAIBOKU) ^-^'

Well then.

This is Bad

Fans of the Visual Kei indie band, Siva, should remember Iori the former guitarist. He left the band for personal reason, or so they said...

Guess what?

He formed a new band! And the name is 'COCKLOBIN'! Heh... Can't help but thinking of a really perverted pun in it (sorry, sorry...).

Doesn't this imply that his reason to left Siva is a total BS? Personal reason = new band? I'm slightly pissed by this.

This isn't a bad news though. I mean, Iori's skill is really good. Just listen to his solo in the song Concealment. So this means one more band to listen to (^_^).

To those who haven't listened to Siva yet, try Mafia/Riot/Concealment (my personal favourite). Pay attention to the bass guitar in these songs. Cell's technique is unique (lame expression, I know... Still a bit shocked). He is a natural born bassist I'd say V(^-^)V

Well then.

Ee...?

I wanna listen to 'The Candy Spooky Theater'. I heard their style is unique...

Also, I want Rentrer en Soi's last album: Ain Soph Aur... But since I'm in Brunei I think I don't have the chance to stumble upon it in any music stores here (laugh). The only Japanese music albums I have are from SADS (pronounced: sa-zu), and those two were unexpected to be found here. The worst thing is, from both albums (SADS Blood Rock & Roll/Babylon), I only found a few tracks entertaining (o_O).

I wanna go to i-SOCKS! Harajuku/Visual Kei store! My personal heaven!

That's all I guess... (^_^). If any of you guys know where I can find a store which sell J-music album in Brunei let me know pleeeeaseeee.

Well then.

Randomness of the day: UBUOAR, (the cheesy deathcry).

Out of Nothing

Vampire Chronicles, nyahahaha! Queen of the Damned muvi rawks. Bet Kamijo watched it already (^^,).

Discovered two all-female Visual Kei bands, but I haven't listened to them yet. I forget the name of one of the bands (>_<) but the other one is Danger Gang. I heard they can scream quite well \ m/. I just hope it sounds nice, ahaha! Like Ruki's, it is totally cool! Or Miyavi in Oresama Shikou, eXtreme! Nyahahaha!

Phantom Pain

As the holy light of the beginning arise, I watched the world through stained glass. Feathers rained down on me, I yearned for the dark. With this everlasting sorrow I crushed flowers in my pale hands. This sickening pain in my chest, it wouldn't end, continuously tormenting me. No matter what I do, what I see, nothing can dissolve it.

Evidence of broken heart in me, so obvious on my face. Laughing while tears rolling down my cheeks, I held out my hands to embrace you who are not there anymore. I chased you who are a part of me, wanting you to be mine however briefly, until finally gone, leaving a huge wound on my heart unstitched.

These fake smiles fooled no one. Every racouse noise I made sound bitter. Dark sky lost its stars while I was chasing after the fleeing you.

In my eyes I can only see the will, in which chronicled the story of us. My remains shall be scattered, or else I will rise as an empty shell without romance. The pitiful reincarnation of the already pathetic me.

In the absence of luxuries, stripped out of richness, everyone is the same. No noblemen, no commoners, everyone is made equal. Except me, my dear, exept me...

I watched the sunrise from my lair. As I walked to the light my exposed flesh crumbled to ashes and was blown away. I do not wish to part, but it cannot be helped. This is my atonement for loving a mortal. Sweet dreams, my dearest one. I shall haunt you in your dreams...

Cotton Candy

The clouds look surprisingly pink tonight. Reminds me of the fluffy cotton candy (^_^)

Not a sweet-tooth, but I would love to eat the clouds right now xD

Yuri wa Aoku Saite & Jelly Fish - alice nine.

Well then.

Reign

I am being nocturnal (>_<)

Went to bed at about 05 30, got up at about 12 30. Every. Single. Day.

Like a vampire *laugh*. Sunlight barely touched my skin these days. My coffin where I lay during the morning, it is comforting. I only sleep while the descendents of the roses rose.

P/S: coffin here is a bed, actually. Just keeping up with the vampire mood (^ ^)

Marvel

Watching the sunrise right now.

I love waking up to a gloomy morning. So comforting 0_0

Close One

Dropped my iPod while climbing the stairs. Suddenly I was experiencing a tunnel vision where I could only see the iPod fall in slow motion. I could only watch helplessly as it bounced again and again before it settled down on the previous floor.

"It's over..." I muttered as I rushed to check its condition.

Aside from the scratched display, everything still worked fine. It was a miracle!

I promise I won't be clumsy anymore ^^'

Well then.

Staring at the Sun

Warm green tea and cloudy day...

It should be the recipe for bliss ^o^

Kamijo-tachi is entertaining me right now with Prince, SFORZANDO and the Revenant Choir.

Hair

I was messing around with my hair yesterday when I discovered something.

I can mold my own hair into the 'BOMBHEAD' style!!

It's not a Visual Kei style though... *sigh*

Anyway just got this song yesterday from one of my senpai: Secret Strawberry Garden by Rentrer en Soi.

Really love that band. Why did they have to disband it?!

Well then.

Ouchie

So dark is my room right now. Managed to step onto something blunt, jammed my fingers with the doorknob, and dropped my alarm clock which triggered the very annoyingly LOUD 'dee-dee-deeeet' sound.

No kidding.

Letting my soul fly with the lovely musical composition that is titled 'enemy'...

Ohayo!

Beautiful...

It is cold right now. Getting up is very tiring. Better wipe the sleep out of me. The morning is too beautiful to be spent on bed ^-^

Songs for this morning: the world -Nightmare & enemy - nega

I'm proud to announce that I'm able to eat DURIAN now! Wahoooo~! No more nausea!

There's just one problem...

I'm getting lightheaded, and dizzy... Counting the stars... Ahaha... Sleepy... Is it because of the durians...?

Funny, because I can hear SFORZANDO lyrics faintly...

Good night Kamijo, Jasmine, Teru, Hizaki, Yuki, Shou, Ruki, Yomi, Hitsugi, Ruka, Kyo, Gackt, Aoi, Kai, Kami, YU-KI, Klaha, Mana and all my favourite Visual Kei artists out there. I'll sing along with you guys tomorrow, nyahaha... =)

Now I'm going to sleep... *yawn*

Bonjour Honey!

I just surfed the net out of boredom...

...when suddenly I saw Versailles's translated blogs!!

Here you go: http://versailles.sleepy-flow.net/

I was preoccupied in reading their blogs I forgot that I haven't eat lunch (^-^;

When I realised the time, it was already pitch-dark in my room. o_0

Well then..

White Prayer - alice nine.

So many lies, so much pain
The ringing in my ears won't cease
The sound of a lonely night reside in silence

Searching for Raison D'etre
In the blank sheet of humanity
Bearing the most richly-coloured paint, I walked

Since when did I don't feel anything?

And cry, with love
We're sure to forget
That the world which dyed grey isn't real
Even if we keep sleeping and sleeping, the dawn wouldn't come
So now, with this hand, let's turn the key

Black or white, jewel or stone
Helplessness is endearing
Because if you're helpless you can wish for someone

Please save me with a white rose
The pain can be shared
I want the strength to be able to do that

To you who has forgotten what you anticipated...

And cry, with love
So I want to tell you
Even the sad songs are never useless
Even if we keep sleeping and sleeping, the dawn wouldn't come
So now, with this hand, let's turn the key

No matter how much the colours mixed
I'll stay the way I am, undyed

And cry, with love
We're sure to forget
That the world which dyed grey isn't real
Even if we keep sleeping and sleeping, the dawn wouldn't come
So now, with this hand, let's turn the key

:: Translation of [WHITE PRAYER - alice nine.]

So it's a brand new year, 2009... New stuffs waiting to be discovered, new challenges, new faces to meet...

*sigh*

Honestly I'm not very friendly with new people. I'm lacking social skill, as someone told me.

"Smile, dammit! That's why people think you're cold and arrogant. They talked to you and laughed, but you never reply the same way."

Pardon me for being that way. It's just how I roll. I'll try to change myself, but meanwhile just excuse me if I do that to you. Like people said, "You can change the river's course, but to do that you need tremendous will and patience".

So I just want to post this because, I want to stay awake. I promised someone to watch the first sunrise of 2009.

These are the songs that I'm listening now:
1. White Prayer by alice nine.
2. Cassis by the GazettE
3. Cross Game by alice nine.
4. Mad Black Machine by Nightmare
5. Vision of You by Rentrer en Soi

These are all Visual Kei songs, my current addiction. Ever since I start listening to these, all songs of other genres is kinda bland... Even HIM songs sound normal for me now while before this I was totally into them.

I have watched the PV for Cassis, Cross Game, Mad Black Machine and White Prayer by the way. Vision of You wasn't provided a PV. Too bad, because it has a deep emotional lyrics...

Happy new year everyone...