Night Sky

It has been a while, night sky. How are you doing?

I hope everything goes well.

It really feels comfortable being overshadowed by you right now.

Take care of The Butterfly, please. The one who arrived on the early hours of August 9th, 2009. The one who managed to break through the cocoon of mortality, but has left many with heart-break.

It's time to move on.

Will remember you always, but I want to recall the image of you with a smile, not with droplet of tears.

Let's go. I await tomorrow with an anticipation. May tomorrow be well.

「浄化; BY MELODY」

Hell Movement:

It is soiled deep in the subconsicous that everything is just polymerised lies.
It is soiled deep in the flesh that the red gash is just old wound reopen.



Purgatory Movement:

I want to sleep and dream, while bearing the 'not-yet-understood' feeling that is clenching me.
So I can cast it away in the dream.

Is it fear?
Is it anxiety?
Will it kill?
Will it prey on me?



Paradise Movement:

To finally reconcile to the thread of fate.
Being at peace at last.
The song of the beautiful crooning angel echoes at the edge of this place.



Winter Farewell:

I refuse to say "goodbye".
You are alive, warm and smiling.
With a beating heart, flowing blood in your veins.
Your fragrance is unbearable.
Let me sink my sinful daggers into you.

「改革運動」

Reformation Motion.

Never I feel so helpless before.

It feels as if I am made of straw, soulless and without warmth. With yellow beads as my eyes and no free will to be declared sentient.

A golem, malignant and tainted with sin done without the acknowledgement of my own mind.

Since when have I reverted to a beast of desire?

My withered lily is shedding its dried petals, looking like a maiden crying before the wicked sacrifice.

Ah I hope this feeling will cease.





[Seulement Dieu sait]

~有害な青~ Imperceptably Draw by the Snow

The sky, I'm afraid, is looking rather unfriendly.

I am heading toward a place where all begins.

Yesterday I lost count of the beads I had let slip when the string broke.
Because of that, the night had been fiercely hostile.
So I hope today will turn out to be okay.

Unfriendly sky.
Dark rain clouds.
Cold wind.
Silence.

Prelude for something?

I mourn for yesterday.
Such a beautiful day had been wasted just like that.

Carpe Diem.
Seize the day.
Life's only transient.
Therefore, before we succumb to the eternal sleep,
live it to the fullest.

「最後の傷」

"Every memories dissolve in the singularity point..."

Sometimes I need to escape from life for a while.

I lay motionless, in the absence of music, inside my solitary chamber.

This place has become hectic lately, slowly driving me into madness.

But there is no chaos here.

My chamber smells of decay. Stench from my own crumbling conscience.

Breathe.

Gone looney? :D

(. _ .)

I just accidentally deleted most of the songs in my phone.

Talk about being in a state of unstability of the mind.

WHAT WILL HAPPEN TO ME NOW??? (O A O)

With my PC out of order...

Wednesday Wednesday

This one is for you, my dearest...

The day we bet against each other

I saw you walk into the canteen area from my seat
because I purposely sat facing the entrance

I saw how you reacted when our eyes met
and almost as soon as my eyes left yours you disappeared

As if you grew a pair of wings and ascended to the sky

When I turned my attention to somewhere else
I felt the now-familiar sensation of your finger poking my side

I turned around and saw the fleeing you, looking graceful even in the rush
leaving behind the gaping friend

You texted me that afternoon, and I still remember what you said

"Where is my drink?"
"I want my drink desuu"

After my afternoon class ended I went to your usual seat at the canteen
and you, sitting cross-legged on the bench, greeted me with a smile
and said, "Baru kan reply text", giggling

We walked together, our steps synchronised gently

With a voice so sweet it makes my knees weak, you ordered the Pokka Ice Lemon Tea.

"This is my favourite drink," squealing in delight, clutching the bottle as if it was a trophy.

Indeed it was a trophy, symbolising the success of you to steal my attention.

We made our way to the noticeboard, to post something related to the J-Club
and met a few of your friends in our way, introducing me to them

After we posted the note we walked slowly to the 'pool' area and spoke again about random stuffs

Then you showed me your mismatched shoes, courtesy of your friend

You asked for me to lend my shoe for a while

Putting it on, you laughed at how absurd it looked like on your cute foot

When I excused myself because my ride was already there, I heard for the first time your "mmmph~"

God knows how I love that simple sound very much




I Miss You I Miss You

I regret not returning your affections earlier
So we can forge many beautiful memories together

I Love You I Love You
Kiko, I truly miss you

It seems like this space has not received much attention and care I promised, when I first created it.

It seems that time flows very fast, and cruel to both of our hearts.

It seems that with every hour that ticks away, my heart weakens and my strength slowly falters.

It seems that I have opened up too much that my vulnerable side has been exposed and attacked many times.

I lashed out accidentally and regretted for even doing it.

I offer my sincerest apology if the person who I directed the not-so-veiled insult read it.

I promise to never do it again.