I feel like I need to talk a lot, but as soon as I open my mouth, all those words I have planned to say disappeared.
Wasting my time, sleeping past the alarm clock set to 5, hitting the snooze button more than once.
What am I planning to achieve in this lifetime? Perhaps, just to survive whatever years I have left and sleep the eternal after that. As of now, my dream remains a dream, and it seems like I do not have the drive to move forward.
Talking to others. Let loose all the silly thoughts I have in my head. Exchanging lame remarks with another person just to feel like we are close.
There's still a phrase I cannot forget, no matter what I do.
It's never a goodbye. It's just a 'see you later'.
After all those promises, where did we end up now?
After all those apologies, what did we left each other with?
After all those moments, how did we recall those?
It's just four years wasted on someone who will not return fully your true feelings, as you said. Not a speck of happiness gleaned from chipping away whatever limited time we had to meet up.
Just maybe, you are the light and I am just a shadow of something that is very close to you. As you shine brighter, I become darker.
Never to be cast anymore. A shadow cannot exist without light, and light will always be accompanied by shadow. I am done being the shadow, and you are done being the light. It is time to exist as two separate entities instead of something that occupies the same space in this world.
With this, I can grow stronger, isn't it? Lamenting what has passed is making me regress, and I am definitely not wanting to go back.
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